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Bitter Sun
03:42
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ignore the weather
you’re becoming september
while the flower petals pass
cutting fingers off the second hand
(but your fingers were crossed)
when the west caught on fire again
(and no matter what)
you’re 10 hours from michigan
(while you’re cutting through fog and the days you forgot)
heard you say it was nice to know you briefly
i guess we’ll always be strangers
can’t recall the last time i saw Carrie
burying me in nail polish seas
and it’s just forever
a dead pennsylvania
it felt like goodbye
and impressions of light
i’m still in your backyard calling in sick again and again
like cemetery wet cement
swore that our steps could move the continents
(temporary light, cut the blonde out your hair)
you’re made of watercolor paint that sunk into the bones i wished would break
(can’t remember how that movie ends)
eventually the weather said just stay inside with crooked rain instead
(you were empty too, didn’t know that you’d be gone so long)
it never rained and always ached
so i stared at the bitter sun all day
and i can’t look away
the spring snow pretended to fall like the winter
the sound of your sleeping was piano keys
the pictures you took will live on in my closet
for summers that ended before we could stomach
when my body tells me that it’s time to leave i’ll go quietly
i swear to god if i ever go back to emma’s house better bury me deep
when the writing on the back is gone, it’s just a photograph
i swear to god if i never go back to emma’s house better bury me deeper
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Sunflower Seed
02:36
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chrissy, i’m sorry that your cat died
if i could i’d push the daisies back to bed
release the clouds around my neck
monday, i’m happy cause you kissed me
if i could i’d cut the sky between the blue
raining on everyone but you
one day, you’re gonna miss the drive home
but for now enjoy the thin veneer
that keeps the blood under your skin
too late, i’m coming down to see you
i wanna hang from every word you say
and kill the cops that live inside my brain
when my body tells me that it’s time to leave i’ll go quietly
when the writing on the back is gone
it’s just a photograph
erase the line that lives between snowing and snowed again
i guess you never know until you do
but if you let me throw myself off of the balcony
i swear that i’ll be back again in june
if you want me to
november slept so quickly
i saw you last on grey street
feels strange inside the city
can you still see right through me
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empty space between the camera
i remember riding the metro
golden light is just a passenger
i’m never want to forget that
my hair-dye is fading out
my hair dye is fading
carved into unsuspecting sycamores
my third last dart of the day
golden light is just a passenger
are you coming back to virginia?
my hair-dye is fading out
my hair dye is fading
now you’re settling in again
you’re rattling in my head
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4. |
Totally Cool
02:39
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i don’t even know where to start
how bout the night we met outside the park
we went to that bar across the street from your apartment
i woke up inside your circles
waiting for the rain under the sheets
but now it’s getting cold out
been a while but you said we would talk
in a day, in a day
it’s totally cool if you hate me
it’s totally cool, yeah i’ll be alright
it’s totally cool you don’t have to be on my mind all night
i don’t even know where to start
how bout the night you left me on the lawn
outside of my apartment
all alone but you said you’ll be back
in a day, in a day
it’s totally cool if you hate me
it’s totally cool, yeah you’ll be just fine
it’s totally cool you don’t have to be on my mind all night
it’s totally cool if you hate me
it’s totally cool if i’m not your type
it’s totally cool you don’t have to be on my mind all night
am i missing out
can i work it out
am i losing all the good i found
it’s totally cool if you hate me
(am i missing out)
it’s totally cool, yeah i’ll be alright
(can i work it out)
it’s totally cool you don’t have to be on my mind all night
it’s totally cool if you hate me
it’s totally cool, yeah i’ll be just fine
it’s totally cool you don’t have to be on my mind all night
(i don’t even know where to start, we left it)
on my mind all night
(i don’t even know where to start, we left it)
on my mind all
on my mind all night
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5. |
Summer Hits
02:48
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dont wanna get off the el yet
the last few stops were sharpie ink
made of paper, ever vacant
haven’t found enough ways to spell your name yet
our grey skies never faded
cause the medicine’s so inconvenient
blue eyes, are you waiting?
won’t you come on outside molly
get the guillotine from your room
but the walls were see through
and i try to undo you
but you’re like a tattoo
how long, how long
you were painting on the graves
you were jumping in the leaves
when you noticed how the sun fell
overgrown and discreet
and if january dont show
you’re missing nothing but the cold
and talking shit about the moon
i swear i’m coming home soon
here’s that playlist you wanted with bands i like on it
significant reasons to forgo the seasons
a graveyard of postcards that falls short on meaning
it feels like a dream but i don’t know who’s dreaming yet
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6. |
Window
02:20
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all alone
didn’t have much to say
i made all the wrong moves
every night, every day
and then i saw you
when i thought i could let go
watching all of my hope
leaving through the ground floor
picture this
you and me watching cars
i said all the right things
underneath all the stars
when i couldn’t hold on anymore
i just let go
watch the trail of your smoke
leaving through my window
when you left
took the world not to cry
now you’re hangin off the arm
of some better new guy
when i saw you
man, i thought i could let go
watching all of my hope
leaving through the front door
picture this
you and me watching cars
i said all the right things
underneath all the stars
when i couldn’t hold on anymore
i just let go
watch the trail of your smoke
leaving through my window
picture this
we said all the right things
we knew all the right people
and wore all the right rings
but we couldn’t hold on anymore
so we said no
watching all the years go
flying out the window
picture this
you and me goin far
we say all the right things
under all the right stars
when we couldn’t hold on anymore
didn’t let go
watching all of our folks
waving through the window
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7. |
Phases
03:14
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8. |
Permanent Couch
02:46
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i crashed your camry
i’m losing housekeys in my head
you’re building oceans
and writing poems with the glass that you shattered
forever snowing
take a breath
acquire basement
and let the negative space just swallow you up for once
cut the sky, menthol
midwest, your breath
fading, a sunburn
blinds drawn too long
paper tongue, i can’t sleep
catherine, empty streets
one day, remembered
steps in concrete
(you’ll never walk home alone)
but you screamed for the sunlight
you’re awake but still in bed
in between the end of everything you thought was permanent
watch the streetlights go on
waiting for headlights to kiss
becoming each other and everyone prepared for final breath
you were cutting through the fog
with your razor scooter wrists
and screaming at the top of your lungs
death to all capitalists
but then november slept so quickly
felt like you could see right through me
don’t wanna wake up i just wanna go to sleep
done counting wishes and sleeping on 17
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i stopped on the road outside of boston when you called and said you wouldn’t be sleeping in
so i drove down to trenton to avoid you when you called and asked where the hell i’d been
straight lines unwind me
you can’t unbind me
and straight lines they
unwind you still
the space around
to feel their thrill
i’ll catch your fall
when i’m downhill
there’s gravity in your blood
that sets the sun too early and too often
all the subway colors fade to one black line
there’s mercury in my heart
and though i cannot quench your noisy head
i’ll occupy the balconies it takes to fall in to you
come on jamie, lets be honest
you’ve been raining hard since august
fallen leaves, and the ice beneath your steps
won’t get that perfume off your breath
come on curtis, lets get nervous
in some beat up old ford taurus
flowering, and the marijuana breath
won’t push those daisies out your chest
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Why
01:17
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why is the sky so blue
every time i think of you
when the wind comes through
well, it sticks to me like glue
like you
like everything you do
why do the trees turn green
when that movie’s on the screen
why is the street so bright
when you shine that little light
at night
to make me feel alright
well you know
i miss the way you’d come around, but the
times are changing and i know you’re bound to find
someone
who doesn’t bring you down
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11. |
Grizzly Wintergreen
09:42
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temporary light
i cut the blonde out of your hair
“antisocialites”
riding bikes and sharing breath
but then the sun choked
broke in through my window
(are you still inside my head?)
guess they never found the body in your riverbed
footprints cover me like windows
i could never open
i’ll always be made of wet cement
fluorescents helped me forget
felt so dark to be honest
ego death, splintered august
don’t want to be anywhere
i am the video and radio star
buried deep in the seats like cds in your car
i’m the last one to show
you’re the first to go home
an intellectual cause i read “on the road” once
you’re caught in between poverty and suicide
in this city, there’s nothing left to gentrify
i know it feels like things won’t get much better
i might agree, but i’d wait with you forever
you make me feel like
i’m not there
next time will be better
i’ll see you downstairs
you’re on the way
but i should’ve said no
just turnaround
i’m not ready to go
it was the first time
i felt alone
i woke up in new york
buried in spokane
and i’m glad we were there
and i’m glad we left it
and i still remember
every single kitchen
and the way the air fell
as you looked for parking
and every room we slept in
if you wake as the ocean
do your best to carry me away
sleep it off in a big house
watching the wallpaper, passing away
anne, i always take too much
cutting through fog, hope is pulling on clouds
when you talk and you’re sleeping
count the syllables coming out your mouth
accidental haikus always come out
i dreamt of a fever
that could salt the roads and put the leaves back on the trees outside
it’s been so hard to stay in touch with all my friends
backlit again, like 35mm film
and when i finally dissolve
become your darkroom
i walked right past you
thought about the tattoo
i gave you back in april
everything is dead now
car was broken into
took that one cassette tape
that i borrowed from you
back when we first met
it’s just forever
eyes bright like diet sunshine
you can stay if you wanna
held close like constant springtime
i dreamt of myself
before realizing i was made of someone else
and so were you
throw away all the dead flowers in your room
and rearrange the magazines i separated from their words
consuming all the things that made you yourself
can’t ignore the weather
hope you’re feeling better
i know that october sits heavy on your shoulders
cellar door behind me
your house was bleeding ivy
don’t need to be stable
just need to be able to see you
it’s just forever
eyes bright like diet sunshine
you can stay if you wanna
held close like constant springtime
i am so sick of my life
and always thinking about death
wait for house plants in the hallway to remind me
that nothing worth it is permanent
come on jesse, it’s time to leave
we can steal some bikes and go to the beach
we never have to sleep again
we’re never waking up again
i want a grave that holds me down
cause i’ll be cutting through the mud
every second spent away from you
was summer death without the sunlight
i’m gonna be the air in every breath
i’m gonna be the air in every breath
i’m gonna be the air in every breath you take
and if you’re sick of your life
just stop thinking about death
it was the fall in philadelphia for the first time
when my name came through your lips
come on jesse, it’s time to go
you don’t wanna be late for the basement show
we never have to sleep again
we’re never waking up again
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